Fear is an obstacle that stands in the way of progress. In overcoming our fears we can move forward, stronger and wiser within ourselves.
Can you relate to the above quote? Do you live with fear that cripples your potential for success? Are your fears keeping you from reaching your dreams and goals?
If you live with fear, you need to read my story. Fear could have paralyzed me if I allowed it, but I didn’t, and still won’t let it get in the way of my dreams and goals.
I had a very happy family life. I had good friends through elementary school. We parted ways when we entered junior high. It was during this time when I started to feel insecure and developed a low self esteem leading to my shyness. This may have been the beginning of my feelings of low self esteem and insecurity because I loved having friends and suddenly they were gone.
One might say I was afraid of my own shadow. Maybe I am exaggerating just a little but I remember being very shy and had difficulty maintaining a lasting friendship because I feared competition. (This most likely was related to my earlier experience as stated above.) I was more comfortable with one good friend. There was always one girl who would attempt to get between my friend and I which made me feel inferior, and I would walk away rather than face the fear of competition
Having a low self esteem and a lack of confidence certainly enhanced my fears. After high school my mother tried to help me and encouraged me to attend a USO group during the Vietnam War. She believed it would improve my socialization. This worked. I learned how to interact with men, I met life time friends and it was the start of turning me into the woman I am today.
In 1979, I was hit head on facing the fear of giving birth to twin boys two months premature. My greatest fears were challenged because two tiny babies were depending on me.
It is now 2016, my one son is married with two wonderful children. Jason, however, was not as successful. He was diagnosed early in his life with spastic quadriplegic cerebral palsy and passed away in 2006 at the young age of 28.
Through the years I began to believe GOD chose me to be Jason’s mother. He saw something in me I didn’t know existed, a very determined, strong woman. I became a fireball, seeking the best care, advocating for his needs relentlessly in my duties, and didn’t take no for an answer.
Currently I am facing the fears I thought I let go of many years ago. I suppose they will always be part of my personality and I must fight through them in order to accomplish my goals and dreams of being a public speaker and parent advocate.
I am addressing you out there who are facing fears. You need to read my story so you can face your fears and become the fireball I was. I am pushing through my inner fears again to teach and support parents of special needs children. I wrote Jason’s memoir, Our Special Child Jason’s Story, (available at http://www.scrapperjudedesigns.com). I wrote this book for you to give you support and give you the comfort you are not alone.
If you are a young parent, feeling helpless, frustrated, fearful and lost please contact me. I want to guide you through your fear.
If you are facing any kind of personal fears, please fight through them. You will be surprised of what you can accomplish.