Say Something: Alex & Sierra X Factor Winners 2013
I chose this song because it is how I felt for a long time. However, I relate it to this blog post because it serves as a reminder. I feel like I have a good angel on one shoulder and a somewhat reluctant angel on the other shoulder singing this song to each other?? Weird…but this is the best analogy I can come up with now.
I am very pleased to tell you I am happier today for the first time in a few weeks. Yesterday my husband and I actually made significant progress in our relationship. I am beginning to be aware at least 1/2 of our problems are due to our finances. Yes he is an abuser but I am starting to learn in therapy he is transferring his inner feelings of anger and depression to me. He understands this and is working on trying to control his feelings. He has many issues from his childhood and the relationship he had with his parents and his brother. He realized we are in debt because of having to financially care for his mother and brother for five years after his father died. He came to terms with it and finally listened to me and we called a lawyer.
I walked out of the lawyers office for the first time feeling somewhat lighter. He literally lifted some of the weight off my shoulders…yes really :). He basically told us our problem is small compared to many of his other clients. We are soon going to be debt free and no longer use credit cards!!!! YEH!!!
After this burden is taken away I truly believe with therapy, we can work through other issues and pray we grow together in our relationship and build on it so we can live a happier life for the first time in many, many years.
We had a lot of issues in our marriage with our son and his issues. I am a very strong person and I think, somewhat intelligent; I believe with praying, working hard and caring again for each other we just may make it through.
Because I am somewhat more relaxed I wanted to paint today. This painting in this post is Lesson two from my Life Book 2014 class.
I want you to know I really appreciate all the support from my friends here. It is like a family who watches out for each other.
Have a great day and I will talk to you soon.